Better Mood, Same Straight Idea

Although I like the house and my lodger is being like a mum to me, everyday I confirm my initial idea of leaving UK in November. I'm going to stay this month as a test, but knowing for sure I won't stay here for the next 8 months... That's the only thing that keeps me in a good mood. I don't want to give a chance to the school, because I even have thought about not going, but I'm going to work unless this month to get some money to come back to Spain and to pay back my parents what they've lent me for this first and only month in the English lands.

I know this is not for me at this moment, as I told this morning to my aunt via Internet, I do have the feeling I have to relax and rest being in Spain, looking for a job there and staying there, not to be already graduated after several hard years at university and come to UK the next day to begin working abroad for 8 months without stopping and come back to Spain on June to work and save money for begin my postgrade. Do I deserve a little bit of relax, don't I? I need to enjoy with my family and friends and get used to a non-studying life, but not by going abroad to work and not having the enough time to say "goodbye" or "thank you" to all the people I would have liked to.

I have a straight idea and it's very difficult for me to change my mind. So now I'm going to try to enjoy all I can while I'm staying here, thinking about my tomorrow meeting at the school, my first class next Friday and my "travel" to London to meet my friend Noe (not to feel so sad or alone in here, to meet her because it's been 9 months since the last time I saw her and to know London).

Now I've said everything I wanted, I do feel better... :) (Despite of the fact that the weather, actually, doesn't help me very much, it's a completely "heavy rain"... )

Listening to: Beat it, Michael Jackson (makes me stronger at this moment)

Picture: my first British tea with digestive chocolate cookies.